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I first started questioning whether I was trans or not when I was 16, and the only image I had of a trans woman was pretty much the replicating 1950s femininity.

It was just like “I don’t want to do that, I guess transitioning is not for me.” And then later when I came out as genderqueer - also you used the term CAMAB (coercively assigned male at birth) - um that there’s like in the genderqueer community around me everyone was coercively assigned female at birth and I had zero role models for what it would look like to be genderqueer and having been assigned male at birth. And so like I had role models but if I dressed like them then I would just have … I did dress like them and I was just seen as a cis guy really and that was hard.

And the one funny story is that my first trans conference was Gender Odyssey, the FTM conference in Seattle, and I ran into a few trans women there and it hit me - I was like “of course! to find trans women like me I should go to the FTM conference!” There were three of us, we got in a corner, we started talking about how “yeah, I’m really looking forward to growing breasts so I can bind them”, and like performing as drag kings and stuff like that. And I was really lucky because my main trans mentor was a feminist trans man and I didn’t realize his roots until several years later but he actually came out after performing as a drag king for a while in a troupe that was predominantly trans women drag kings and so like that’s my roots’ roots.

It’s really useful to know that history even if it’s not widely spread, ‘cause I remember several years after that I saw someone online saying “I’m a trans woman and I’m a drag king and I’m the first ever to do it.” And it’s like “you know it feels that way, and I know it feels that way, but there are a decent number of us.”

This is so fucking powerful for me.

I’m not the only one who binds.

Thank you.

So there’s a home inspector in our place, and our requests to find out whether we still have a home post-sale are being intentionally ignored. So we’re looking.

I’m not really stressed out; there are many places we could move into. But it’s finding one that we’d like to move into that’s harder. So we’re still looking.

maxcapacity: i was just getting mad about this a minute ago Bleh. I don’t like either direction of this inter-generational blame game because it presumes that we’re not like them.  This manufactured division isn’t anything new, heck Aristophanes was poking fun at it. I think on the younger end, it’s just as unproductive to falsely believe that we would have behaved any differently than our parents given the same environment. Because we both want the same: what’s best for us now (tangibles), at the cost of our future and all those we can ignore (intangibles.) The only thing that makes us “better” is that we now come with the experience of our parent’s decisions. But it doesn’t render us any less willing to sacrifice others for our own gain.
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maxcapacity:

i was just getting mad about this a minute ago

Bleh. I don’t like either direction of this inter-generational blame game because it presumes that we’re not like them. 

This manufactured division isn’t anything new, heck Aristophanes was poking fun at it. I think on the younger end, it’s just as unproductive to falsely believe that we would have behaved any differently than our parents given the same environment.

Because we both want the same: what’s best for us now (tangibles), at the cost of our future and all those we can ignore (intangibles.) The only thing that makes us “better” is that we now come with the experience of our parent’s decisions. But it doesn’t render us any less willing to sacrifice others for our own gain.

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perdu-me:

Things not to say to me while I’m eating:

  • That’s a lot of food
  • That’s not enough food
  • You’re going to eat all of that???!??
  • That looks gross
  • That’s not healthy
  • That looks healthy
  • That’s disgusting
  • Why are you eating that?
  • I’m glad you’re eating more

In case you didn’t understand, DON’T MENTION ANYTHING ABOUT MY EATING/FOOD/INTAKE WHETHER IT BE POSITIVE OR NEGATIVE I DON’T WANT TO HEAR IT.

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When I was 12, I started to learn to program with Alice. 

It was much less intimidating than textual programming languages, and it was really keyed at the kind of instant gratification kids would appreciate.

I think one of the hardest things for new programmers is not getting discouraged. Here you are with this brilliant idea for a program in your head, but you’re looking at a herculean learning curve to be able to get there. Usually, the most you can do is some command-line application that asks you to enter something and spits some text back out. It’s not anything like the “real” programs out there. That realization kills creative potential. It doesn’t have to.

Alice lets you build 3D worlds with one click of the mouse, and making stuff happen in it is easy. Now that’s more like a “real” program! It’s a wonderful tool for kids and curious adults.

Goals for the Summer

  • Start HRT.
  • Apply for a software dev job at a friend’s company.
  • — If I get it: Put school on hold, work there full time.
  • — If I don’t get it: Continue with school.
  • Find a new place to live. :(
  • Bake some more! Try making croissant’s again.
  • Read for fun.
  • Spend time with people important to me.
  • Go to Las Vegas one last time to see some friends.
  • Save money.
  • Create one open-source project.

Q:How did u started learning programing? and what is the first programing language u have learned???

seches

I started getting interested in programming around when I was 8. My school’s math textbooks were from the 80s, and they had little boxes with BASIC code that would exemplify whatever was being taught.

I started to code in BASIC around then, learning from source code that was available and making little projects for myself.